Saying Goodbye was not that easy. I seemed to be strong, but deep down my soul I was broken into tiny pieces.
I said Goodbye to the life you brought to my world.
I said Goodbye to our commitments.
I said Goodbye  to our memories.
I said Goodbye to our dreams.
I said Goodbye to our future home.
I said Goodbye to our messages.
I said Goodbye to our hug.
I said Goodbye to our pictures.
I said Goodbye to our life.
I said Goodbye to our vision.
I said Goodbye to our phone calls.
I said Goodbye to myself.
I said Goodbye to my feelings.
I said Goodbye to the little one inside me.
I said Goodbye …

I said GOODBYE to set you free, then I became  the prisoner of that GOODBYE. I am the one who was killed by this end. I thought that I could get over you and begin all over again, but darling that was not the case. You went away with the little one inside me. Now, I am standing alone; fighting my thoughts, feelings and myself.





Impacts of the sexual revolution


    ” It is interesting to note that the “sexual revolution” was sometimes portrayed as a communal utopia, whereas in fact it was simply another stage in the historical rise of individualism. As the lovely word “household” suggests, the couple and the family would be the last bastion of primitive communism in liberal society. The sexual revolution was to destroy these intermediary communities, the last to separate the individual from the market. The destruction continues to this day.”       –Michel Houellebecq-

The world is over flowing now with right demands, it has turned into a wide square where the residents of it became protestants asking for their rights, each asking for the right that he/she lacks, and demanding to practice that right. That global revolution is affecting everyone on this earth due to globalization, but a certain problem starts to rise, or what politicians call the follow-revolution acts, when the rights demanded in a certain region doesn’t fit the rest of the world. The revolution we are talking about here is the sexual revolution; it started in the 1960s in America and western Europe, although many say that it is the second one, as the first happened in the 1920s after World War I, but I think that 1960s fits well for the term, because during the 1960s all the follow revolution acts and movements started to appear. Feminism, homosexuality, pornography, public nudity and freedom of abortion are all considered acts that followed the sexual revolution, along with movements like counterculture, women’s and gay rights movements that all followed the sexual revolution and are considered also a part of it. The secret doesn’t lay in the rights but in the impacts of practicing them, so what are the effects of the sexual revolution and how did it change the world? That is what I am going to discuss.

The sexual revolution wasn’t just about the freedom of having an intercourse with a counterpart but it extended to include every aspect of life, and as much as many people may regard it as an act of liberation and that it made the world a better place, some others, including me, see that the disadvantages and the side effects had damaged many valuable things and beliefs of the world, that it even played in the normal cycle of life creating a great sense of imbalance in the way of living. For example, the right of public nudity opened the door for pornography and adult movie industry in the late 1960s throughout the 1970s up till now, for example the Blue Movie in 1969 that was the first movie displaying erotic scenes that would have never been published before that. And then this industry started nourishing and growing that it has now actors and actresses, and is taken seriously by critics, and it also has awards like “AVN Awards”, which is considered the “Oscars” for pornographic movies. But what in it comes to the impacts of the right of public nudity or publishing adult movies, many people around the world are suffering from porn addiction that can destroy their lives as it appeared in the movie “cyber seduction: his secret life “, and such widespread movies that can be found in minutes created a crisis in the regions of the world that doesn’t have the liberty of practicing the “sex without marriage right” such as the middle east, therefore; marriage rates started decreasing and the unmarried girls rates started going up, because the men find what they can have in a marriage based relationship in the media easily.

The other movement that appeared and is actually getting widely acclaimed nowadays is the gay rights movement; that 2015 is labeled as the “gay rights year” with the rainbow flags and clothes and many awards dedicating their night shows to the movement like the MTV Music Awards. With all due respect to homosexual people and their life style, the huge amount of expenses and money that is spent to support the gay rights weren’t that necessary in the year 2015, when many other crises and issues were rising and reaching a peak like the displacement crisis in Syria and the unending famine in South Africa. These issues deserved the same and more amount of attention from the world, because the gay people were already practicing their rights freely, especially after President Obama became the President of the United States in 2008, and he is known to be a huge supporter of rights including the gay people rights. The other thing about homosexuality is that it is strictly forbidden in most of the sacred religions, and is regarded as an abomination of nature, because it defies the normal cycle of life which is reproduction and continuing to build the earth; and that is considered the main purpose of creating life and human beings in the first place. Although homosexuals say that it is their nature and that they can’t change it, people argue saying that everyone is created with an inner demon and a certain point of conflict and that they must resist in order to preserve the order of nature, just like how a person persists anger, lying and the desire to go all bad and destroy everything. But despite what many anti-homosexuality supporters say, it is happening now and increasing in many ways like; it is appearing now in countries that didn’t support it before like India and some regions in the Far East, also; it is becoming a choice rather than a human nature that one can persist. For instance, if a girl doesn’t feel comfy in a relation with a guy, she can start dating girls without the desire to actually do so. As I previously mentioned, with all due respect, it is not about the right, it is about the impact. And homosexuality is becoming a culture that imposes itself above traditions, beliefs and religions, and no right should have that immense amount of power over the entire human race. So, refusing the homosexuality in a certain society in a respectful manner is not an act of racism, but it is a right. Because rights are not just about saying yes and agreeing, it is sometimes about saying no and defying.

The sexual revolution is believed to have coincided with feminism and Women rights’ movement, and that maybe true when it comes to time, as they both started in about the same time and started gaining attention and nourishing at the same time too. But in my point of view, they do not support each other; maybe from the side that they are both rights and that a woman can have a free sexual life yes, but when it comes to how the sexual revolution made women more empowered, I don’t think so. I actually believe that they contradict; Feminism is all about empowering women and respecting them, before the women rights movement, women were treated badly and as second best to men, but after it they started gaining more power and are able to work freely, have the right to vote and going through elections; all these things made them more respected and regarded as first best, equal to men. But isn’t all of it about respecting a woman’s mind, and seeing her as more than just a body? The sexual revolution actually opened the door to men to regard girls as just bodies without considering their minds, because it paved the way for opened relations and the term “friends with benefits” which is all about body relations. Thus; girls started going for wearing less clothes and less thinking, most of the girls’ worlds now revolve around beauty and plastic surgeries to look better and more presentable in men’s eyes, while the girls with more clothes and more brains on them are labeled as nerds and old fashioned. And these entire thoughts act against feminism and side with the sexual revolution which make them stand on two facing lines not on one extended line. And when it comes to its impacts, there is an issue of sexual harassment starting to take a rise around the world now and both sexes are blaming the other one; men say that girls are “showing too much”, and girls say that it is their right to wear what they see fit. The second most important impact is;  girls and women now refuse to have kids and start families till a late age like late 30s and mid 40s,  and with the help of birth control pills and freedom of abortion, it is threatening the growth rate in many countries around the world like western Europe, while the Far East and Middle East where the sexual revolution is not heavily highlighted; the population is increasing really fast, which make them win when it comes to continuing the life cycle and preserve the place of their race on earth for a longer time.

In conclusion, Rights is a very delicate topic, and people should be aware when demanding for their right and while practicing it. The world is a place that you share with billions of people and even if you would never meet every single one of them, you should be aware that due to globalization that whatever rights you practice or movement you support or even a case you adopt will have its impacts on the entire world and effect millions of lives, so choose your side wisely and always respect the other parties. The world is big enough for everyone.

P.S: This article is written with all the respect to every sex, race, sexual taste, color, people, policy and region in this world. It is a mere discussion and an expression of personal opinion and point of view. Thanks…



Let your eyes speak…

Eyes have power of souls, everyone’s eyes are mirrors to theirs souls and thoughts. We are all full of unspoken feelings and thoughts, our conversations will never depend on our verbal words, there is something deeper that can not be expressed in some words. Here comes our eyes’ role in reflecting what’s going on inside our souls.

Ughhh, I am tired of trying to hide my feelings , my inner thoughts and my insecurities.
All in vain .
My eyes are always speaking.
My eyes are always revealing what I am painfully trying to hide.
My eyes are the open gates of my soul .
Now, I am sure that whatever I am trying to hide,my eyes will always say the truth.





” Dirty , ugly , weak, coward , lonely, needy , bad, stupid, foolish , unwanted , disqualified , never good enough…”
I am done with these labels.
No more believing in what others say about me and my life .
I am welcoming you to come into my life through my eyes.
please look deeper into my eyes and see how I insisted on living when life was unbearable.
How needy I am for unconditional love that could accept me for who I am not for my physical appearance.
Stop judging me and putting labels all over my life.

“It’s cold”
Wrapping her body with all what she has is in vain.
Walking to get extra energy to be warm is in vain.
Hiding  all her body in black to absorb any energy from the sun is in vain.
It’s not about weather , It’s about feelings.
It’s not about her body, It’s about her soul.
Where is the sun of her soul ?! The deep senses of joy, peace , and love are missed .
All what she needs is to warm up her soul not her body.
To be wrapped with love.
To overcome her fears and insecurities.
To be stubborn with her coldness , to  be focused , to be determined and to  be strong.



Yeah, I am this little boy.
I am a survivor.
I am a warrior.
I am a fighter.
I am this one who is strong enough to fight loneliness , depression, illness, ignorance, poverty, failure…etc
They left me but I survived.
I was in the war of negative feelings and thoughts, but I was a brave warrior.
Nothing went right in my life but I was a fighter.
I believe in my self.
This very big smile reflects the victory I have achieved, and my hope to have a better life.



These four pictures are nothing but a reflection of four souls through their eyes.
Don not neglect what eyes are saying, and let your eyes speak.

well educated origins !!


“We are having a baby!!” is actually one of the most loveable and cheering sentences on earth, not just because it indicates the existence of a new life and a new family, but also because it the extension of two people in this life. A mother is usually happy because of the life growing inside her, the baby resting on her heart and the very first kicks that send her to cloud nine, and a father is usually happy because his legacy is going to live through another person carrying his name and his blood line would continue throughout another generation. All the mentioned above are great things, but the thing that makes the parents’ heart flutter to the most is seeing themselves in their kid as he is growing up starting from his features to his habits and likes. But what would happen if you take away a crucial part that helps in building the person’s personality, such as environment and nationality?, We are witnessing now a rising phenomenon of people from the middle east going to give birth in Europe or the US, in order for the newborns to have the nationality, that surely has both advantages and disadvantages, and that is what we are going to discuss from the perspective of what if a major thing happens in both countries; which side will these kids pick?

Being from a country and carrying the nationality of another carries a lot of privileges, as you can live in two places, study in two places and carry two passports, so it is all about choices, but what if the choice is so hard. The Middle East is a region that is in a constant threat of a war for many different reasons, and the newborn babies today are actually the men and women of the future. So, what if a Middle Eastern country went to war with one of the western countries that they carry the nationality of? Which side will they pick and why? In order to explain the theory, we are going to use an example of two countries and different scenarios. For instance, An Egyptian guy carrying the US nationality; It is believed that the Egyptians have a special connection to their land, some say because of the many wars that Egypt had throughout history so basically, its people are bound to it by blood, and others say because of the little things and the magic that this country holds within. On the other hand, the US is known as the country of freedom and democracy, and that the American people are among the most respected throughout the world. The privileges that an American passport carrier has are many, such as good education, high quality health insurance, good treatment in airports and while travelling, also luxury and good life standards; the things that differ from what in Egypt from poor education to low health insurance, bad treatment, as Arab are holding the print of terrorism, and not so well life standards. But that isn’t what life is really about right?

Historians believe that the reason the Middle Eastern countries are” keeping it together” is due to the unified strong social fabric; represented in the unity of families and loyalty of friends. While in the US these things don’t carry such importance and are usually neglected and observed as the ties that hinders one’s progress. All these reasons would put the previously mentioned guy or girl in a bad position of which side they are willing to choose. This article is not going to provide an answer for that, it is actually a question for each one out there, and what do you think they shall choose? Shall it be the roots, family, land and friends, or better future, education health and insured future for their kids? As a human being, what carries most importance to you? The past or the future, and can the present be a land of compromise and peace constituted by those who shall refuse to choose in a state of war, and rather maintain peace between the two spheres of the globe?

In conclusion; Environment and origins do not change people, it just influences them and help in making them better people, so if it would hold you back, you don’t just let go, you fight. Fight to maintain the past and help in building a better future. Aspire for the best and dream of the better. Transfer the good things from a place to another, help in changing times and do not give up the privileges of the west and the beauty of the east. Give the world the peace it needs by working hard and giving the best image you can, no matter where you are from. In my opinion, only people standing on borders can help erase the barriers between a country and another.


Scribbles of life

             images              Education is not only in schools, ignorance is not about reading and writing.  In fact, the world is the only school that can make good or bad persons. It is all about how people receive their education in this big school that called ” the world”.
Any living creature is a learner in this school. However; every person has his own pencil with which he/she writes down every experience, lesson, and dream. This pencil carries the identity of its user and the paper carries his/her life, wile the eraser carres the burden of mistakes.
                          “But it’s like any other pencil I’ve  ever seen!”
“That depends on how you look at things…” Paulo Coelho introduced this idea long time ago. Coelho wrote “the story of the pencil” by which he gives new meanings for life.
The pencil can be seen as if it is just a piece of wood with graphite in the inside and can be seen as the dream achievers.
This pencil can be broken but it can not lose its value. Being broken will never underestimate its real value.It is like anyone in this world (this school) that can pass through difficult experiences  and can make mistakes, but it can not lose its value whatever happens.This pencil can write poems and also can write nonsense. It is all about how it is guided.
In the world, every person has  his own identity and value that can never be lost.
May be one can be broken but one can not be nothing.The real value of the pencil is in the inside; its values lay in the graphite. Typically like anyone whose value is in his identity not in his actions, achievements and success.  Being created and exited in this school means that you have a priceless value. This value that exists before even your actions, achievements, and success exist.  Everyone is totally unique person that can never be evaluated by his/her appearance.In the world, that represents the biggest school, the pencil is a crucial element in learning.
                         Simply because pencil also writes down his owner’s life story. So be careful how your life is going. It is not that easy to erase your mistakes with an eraser and keep on moving and writing. Actually, it takes time and effort to erase a mistake from your paper ( your life). The beat thing about a pencil is that whatever it writes, it can be erased. The mistakes in our lives are not the end of our life, it is a beginning of new lesson. Here comes one’s responsibility to handle his/her mistakes; One can choose to keep on moving and learning and the other can choose to threw away the paper and the pencil.
This world depends on decisions and how decision makers were once children.
To become a decision maker means to become flexible with your mistakes and past.

                                 The eraser may seem the most forgotten tool in a student’s pencil case, although it is the thing that is used the most. The eraser erases typos, and mistakes. And Just like how the eraser comes attached to the end of a pencil, it is also attached to human’s brain. What human never makes mistakes? No one, we all do, we all fall in the intriguing manipulative paths of the devil, but an eraser teaches us that there is always a way back, that there is always a chance for redemption. The eraser is that U-turn that appears in the road to tell you that you can go back and start from the beginning, that you have another chance and take care not to waste it. Mistakes and Redemption are like 2 beacons; each alluring a specific side in our souls. Sometimes, we go in this way and sometimes we go in that, but it’s not bad nor is it wrong. Making mistakes is what makes us humans and seeking redemption and forgiveness is what makes us alive. They both continue each other, just like a pencil and an eraser; if there wasn’t pencil writing and making mistakes, the eraser would be useless, and if there wasn’t an eraser, the pencil would then become afraid to write anything, which makes it also useless. If a certain person knew that he/she can’t erase their mistakes, they would never try anything which will make them living dead, and if God didn’t give the human a way back, he would have created a flawless humanity. It is totally approved and accepted for us to make mistakes and try to use our erasers to wipe them off; it is actually recommended to go on with life and don’t trap ourselves in the past and never let it define the present and the future. On the other hand, an eraser doesn’t teach us only that, but it also teaches us that whenever it is used, it gets dirtier and smaller. Our mistakes are just like that, they define us, and we should know that we have a few shots in erasing them before our erasers end. So, just as much as we need to use the flexible erasers to wipe off our mistakes, we should bear in mind that it won’t last forever and that we should take care and know that every mistake counts, because it doesn’t just hold us back but it also takes much of our effort and lives to forget and erase.

On Balance, a pencil is just like a human being, it writes down his  story; his life, his passions, achievements, success and mistakes. And an eraser is just like the human passion and instinct that seeks forgiveness and erasing the mistakes he has ever made. So, be careful and picky when you write your story , make mistakes, but erase wisely and learn from them, and remember that you only have few papers to fill out so write with wisely and lively. May everyone’s papers always be  colorful and full with life.

Unleash the Demon

Sometimes, when we release our inner demons, it brings us closer to the ones who love us. It takes trust to release the darkest part of ourselves- and trust doesn’t come easily” { Forever in his Debt- The search for a cure} written by (Sylvia Young) 

Demons; People say that Demons are human souls that became corrupted by spending years tortured in hell which basically means that every human has an inner demon that gets out when they see hell. So, what would happen if these inner demons saw hell in earth? will they unleash themselves? with who? and why?, that is what’s discussed in the previous quote that we want to spot the light on.

This quote defines the meaning of being human. The world is not full of angels; it is full of human beings who have good and bad sides.  “Inner demons” are part and parcel of our souls. By inner demons, we mean every bad habit or  characteristic of one’s personality, for instance; lying, cheating, betraying, being angry, abusing, etc… They are called inner demons, because all the previous characteristic are ones that our mind relate to demon’s habits. That is why all  humanity is hungry. This hunger is not a physical one but a psychological hunger. The main big issue is that the souls are hungry to be accepted and loved; that is why some people tend to change themselves or even deny their bad sides, which only has bad effects on them and on the people around them. The thing that a person must do is; face this bad side, accept and love it.  His/her soul is hungry to be accepted and loved not from another person but from the one himself/ herself. Human beings are not Gods, therefore they are not perfect and they will never be perfect, that’s why they should embrace this fact and love themselves for who they are. Everyone is a complete human being but not everyone is a perfect. We seek perfection but this will never  mean that we are perfect. The “inner demons” are the ways with which we see our bad sides and how we deal with it. However, We should work on ourselves and change to be better persons but we should not refuse or ignore our humanity and imperfection.

The other thing that this quote discusses is who are the people that we let our inner demons appear with; it actually mentions a new perspective here, as it says that the people we do this with are actually the people we love and trust a lot, that is why  we allow them to see the darkest parts of our souls. The human nature of needing to be loved and accepted can make them have a tight leash on their inner demons, but sometimes when they face their personal hell that have to let go, and who does one experience hell with except his/her loved ones? By personal hell we mean the situations that triggers the bad side on one’s personality, like if a man sees someone flirting with his wife, he will become jealous , angry then maybe possessive and then ,in some cases,  doubtful. That is why this quote made a relation between the inner demons and the trustworthy and loved people. If that man didn’t love his wife, he wouldn’t feel that bad. If he didn’t trust her he wouldn’t let his bad side appear in front of her. Because, as previously mentioned, Human souls are hungry for love and acceptance, so if one didn’t know that the people he lets his bad side be uncovered to, will always love and accept him, he would never do it. And perhaps, that’s why we might see in movies or novels, that the worst enemies are actually the best of friends, and we even like their scenes together or the lines they exchange, because they let their inner demons out  in hopes to hurt one another, but it actually draws them close, as they both accept the other on what they are. Sometimes we even ship the bad / good person relationships, like (Beauty and The Beast TV series) or (The Vampire Diaries) …

To Sum up, what this quote implies is that we are all perfect in being imperfect, and that is a reason to accept our selves and one another. It also says that we should be around the people who are always going to be there for us no matter what, the people who never forces us to change or hide our true selves when with them. The people who can make us freely unleash our inner demons.




Don’t fear, don’t panic… She is not alone; she is filled with people; their thoughts, their hopes and what she hears from them every day.

She is not in pain, those dark strings do get tight and hurt but they make her stronger, they make her a fighter, they make her who she is.

She is not filled with darkness; she is filled with light, an enlightened vessel filled with dark thoughts; a white paper filled with dark lines. That is what makes her readable and useful.

She is not crying; she is just looking back to experiences, memories and unforgotten words, whether they were happy or bad, they still painted her life, and even if it is with dark colors, she remains a beautiful drawing.

She is not one person; she is filled with stories; stories of all the girls, all of her age, her generation, her family, her friends and herself.

A girl is a story that unfolds itself every day, she is strong and independent. If you want to be a part of her life, be; but don’t have the urge to always take care of her… she is completely capable of that. So, take care before you hurt her… She is in no need for more pain.

 ” Dirty , ugly , weak, coward , lonely,  needy , bad, stupid, foolish , unwanted , disqualified…”
She is done with these labels.No more believing in what others say about her and her life .
She is welcoming anyone to come into her life and She is ready to tell her story; how She insisted on living when life was unbearable, and how needy She is for  unconditional love that could accept me for who She is, NOT for  physical appearance.
Stop judging her. This girl has been used for several years . Yes She has been used not loved; Men used her body, her friends used her time for their own needs and left her alone when she needed them, and finally her parents left her chained.
It is her time to live, to love and to be free.
Its her time to be a human.
Its  her time to enjoy her rights and learn from her mistakes.
Its her time and your time to get up and dance despite her and your past.

Continue reading SHE!


untitled“Gladiator ” is one of the romantic movies !!! This movie explains how one could be loyal for his beloved ones even in their physical absence and how one could love and consider ” Death” his home; just because he will see his beloved ones in the after life ! As if his beloved ones mean home to him while  the real life means nothing without his wife and his son . He kept remembering them and fighting for them till died. He kept fighting for his goals, for his beloved ones, and for freedom. This movie introduced the another form of love and freedom. There will never be love without freedom. There is no fear in love and that makes him brave enough to fight; moreover, he knows that freedom has a price and it is his responsibility to pay that price. This movie discusses the unconditional love that knows no restrictions. This movie also gives further perspective for freedom. It can not be cheap or easy. It is the most expensive thing one could ever have. It demands fighting not only people but beliefs and thoughts. Freedom is not just a word, it is the biggest responsibility any person could take. Gladiator lost his home( his wife and son) but he kept fighting for a better life. This fighting that makes him stand alone and knows how great he is. Freedom means fighting and being ready to pay whatever it costs. He gets a better life for a whole nation by giving his life to this nation; he paid the price and died for saving other lives.

col But, If we can skip and see through the amazing art of piece the “gladiator” is, with the brilliant acting, amazing story line and exceptional directing; we can see that it still carries some issues around it.

Firstly: Killing; the concept of killing is arguable even if Maximus (Crowe) does it as a way of gaining freedom and for the cause of liberty, which still doesn’t change the fact that he was collecting souls in his path towards freedom. Such heavy acts of violence and killing may not seem appropriate for a big slice of people like kids, but actually the idea and concept of freedom needed to be cemented more in the brain of young people so they build a vision and future for based on that cause. Also, the blood of one’s own is heavily interpreted in the movie when the Emperor’s heir kills him for power, which takes us to the idea of cold blood, as he then declares a 150 days of fighting in the Colosseum, which if it is in the honor of his father still contains killing. So, basically it is honoring the dead by more death. Maybe to keep his late father’s company.

The other thing that can be argued about in this movie is actually the idea of slavery, if such amount of money used in the production, the good movie and the high attention towards it, as it won three academy awards, should have been used to put the modern slavery under light. As much as the old slavery makes good stories that people sympathize with, they are still all dead people and their time is gone. What is needed to be done now is put the eyes on the modern time slavery and human trafficking which the world seems deniable to in an infuriating way. Especially that modern slavery is done in a more secretive way than the past which makes its consequences more horrible as it remains hard to track and fight. And that is not its only problem but also the fact that it the specialty of criminal organizations like the mafia and the terrorism organization. That is why if the “gladiator” efforts were used for that cause , it would have saved thousands of innocent souls that are captured in the cruel chains of slavery every day.

Away from the previous, no one can argue that the “gladiator” is a spectacular movie and entertaining to watch, but it would be better if we use such good movie creations to discuss our living issues and the wars which every country in the world is facing at the moment.